This blog is a little different to most because its not about my pyrography or my art and more about me, Richard. As I write this I find that for the first time in a long time I'm taking a stroll through an interior landscape. I'm reflecting upon myself; my heart, mind and character. This is something I used to do when I was younger and more given to self-obsessed philosophising.
Many folk sneer when starsigns and suchlike are mentioned and I don't pretend to know too much about the subject but the descriptions of mine are uncannily truthful. My birth sign is Cancer; the birth sign is your characteristics and personality that kind of pre-dates and development of those aspects of "you". My star or sun sign is Virgo; anally retentive, OCD, orderly and an Earth sign. The sun sign is like an exterior representation of you and is still a part of your personality and character definition. The moon sign is more like that which you are inside, its innate and little shaped or seen really by anyone. My moon sign is Aquarius, a creative Air sign. Most people who know me would agree with the sun sign match up, whereas my moon sign can also be seen in what I do (art etc), its less likely to be believed ("don't know where he gets it from").
With me so far?
I have very recently (just before I wrote this) come to realise that I am an individual made up of three parts much like all the astrological signs above that make up "me". I have a side of me that craves order, I like things a certain way and thats it. I don't swear (often), I'm polite and well behaved, I rarely drink and I make sure that my daughter has rules and routine. I don't like to get emotional, there's no need for that sort of thing, better to stay objective. Essentially I'd call this my virgo side. It makes me write lists of pointless things that cover unlikely eventualities (whilst not covering things that would be useful). I like sensible things like reading quietly, I don't like shouting or football or outdoor music festivals.
Then I have this other side which lets my daughter get away with a lot (so long as its quiet and not too messy). I like heavy metal, I like to smoke (cigarettes - I can't stand weed), I like being in the buff (weather permitting), tattoos and piercings, dreadlocks, mohawks and controversial cinema. I get very emotional sometimes, usually depressed or stupidly happy.
The third part seems to be a made hybrid of the two personalities that tries to accommodate both whilst not letting either get too much in charge, but definitely biased towards the first. This third part, I feel, is something that I've constructed to cope with the two dichotomically opposed aspects. Talk about identity issues haha.
Does it matter in the end?
Not really, I've still to burn wood.
